She Wonders

Driving through dust devils in the hot butter light Swimming pool, Holiday Inn nowhere Southwest again And he was sipping gin And driving the point of his gas station Knife into the wall And she was sitting on the corner of the bed Pretending to drink Thinking "Ain't this just like a movie set" What do they think of me? Is it embarrassing? That I can't lose control And now that we're alone Are you pretending Are you pretending Are you pretending 'Cause you don't have to for me Night highway trees Motel window fleeting back You don't want to feel anything But you don't want to feel nothing And the mist of Texas rain Makes a halo round her face And he asks her on the jackalope patio "Do you feel like a rock-star on stage?" She says, "It never lasts I feel eight and 70 years old so fast Can't be reckless free 'Cause then they say us girls are batshit crazy" And one look at his milk fed face The part the other one plays And she can see they'll all never understand She wonders What do they think of me? (What do we think?) Is it embarrassing? That I can't lose control And now that we're alone, when they're gone Lying on this cracked leather sofa Are you pretending Are you pretending Are you pretending 'Cause you don't have to for me You don't have to for me Being cool doesn't mean anything When it's just me Being cool doesn't mean anything Doesn't mean anything