Letter To Myself

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me (DVUS Texas nigga) This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy (C4) I need somebody to heal Somebody to know (Yuh) Somebody to have Somebody to hold (Okay) It's easy to say (Let's go) But it's never the same I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain Now the day bleeds Into nightfall And you're not here To get me through it all I let my guard down And then you pulled the rug I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved I wrote this letter to myself to have some closure from you Gimmie some time I'll be content, I did what I'm posed to do I mean I loved you to the max, I had yo back When shit got tough Shit I gave you all I had but I guess I wasn't enough But shit I miss you, I wanna hold u tight and kiss yo face Won't try replacing you cuz any other bitch feel out of place I need to heal, I'm anti social anyway, I'm out the way This shit don't sit right, I don't understand just why you alked away But I won't ask for explanations, if you wanted you would give them Or you do, you just don't know how so it might not be that simple I give the benefit of doubt to you, my rule that's always written And I'm stuck on moving on but deep inside wish we rekindled I lost somebody that I love but they ain't dead man this shit crazy And I don't want you hurtin to but if you ain't it's cos you hate me And I don't mean to be off loafing in the past my feeling make me So you can call it what you want but girl you was deadass my baby Love the shit out of you crazy, shit it's crazy how you up and left I thought you was my lady, But now it feel as if you hate me Am I exaggerating maybe, but don't blame me, I ain't crazy Shit I gave you all I had a cold shoulders what you gave me back You told me you wanna go I watch walk out the door Feel like we been here before Ima let you go but I want you to know If I could do it again, I wouldn't wanna be friends Cos all this pain that I been through, I don't want it again And everything that I gave you, down the drain where it went But right now im finna thank you, cos you making me win I'm workin harder than ever, I ain't feelin no pressure I let go of the stress of tryna keep us together You say this what you wanted and I'll be damn if I'm beggin You had a man who was down for you who would give you whatever But it is what it is I guess it is what it is I drown my feeling wit drink Sometimes I don't wanna think I can't help but to see your mother fuckin face when I blink I can't get over this shit I feel like something is missing I won't call you again, it's not like you're gonna listen I'm sad I've fallen again, really thought this time was different No I don't wanna be friends, I am inlove don't you get it? Ain't heard yo voice in a minute My camera roll got me trippin My bed feels bigger now that it ain't got the both of us in it I was the man that you needed and the idea you wanted You was the girl of my dreams still can't believe we departed And from the day this shit started and from the rate that we bonded Who woulda knew I'd end up empty handed and broken hearted it hurts