Lately

I try to run away from these empty feelings 'Cause self loathing is under my skin again Some days it feels like I have no meaning 'Cause it's 3 a.m., and I'm still awake Lately, I'm so afraid that I might let you down My conscience is killing me, but I won't make a sound Maybe I'm just a little blind, just a little high It feels better when I close my eyes Lately, I'm so afraid that I might let, I might let you down Self-doubt is hard to forget When I'm losing my friends 'Cause I don't see the world like them And I don't want to admit That I'm losing my grip on life 'Cause I'm still awake I'm just a little bit jaded Lately, I'm so afraid that I might let you down My conscience is killing me, but I won't make a sound Maybe I'm just a little blind, just a little high It feels better when I close my eyes Lately, I'm so afraid that I might let, I might let you down That I might let you down Yeah, yeah I feel like I'm a loser Like I don't deserve you Rewriting my thoughts They're a suicidal haiku Push you all away when you try to get closer Buried half my family and finally got closure Oh yeah, yeah, oh yeah, yeah Uh-huh La-la-la, lately, I'm so afraid that I might let you down Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah La-la-la, lately, I'm so afraid that I might let you down Yeah, yeah Fuck Yeah, yeah La-la-la