Melancholy

Thought I was drunk, I sobered up (I don't know what time it is) 'Bout to roll another blunt (low fly but I honor this) It's funny how they get amnesia Could do the most for your loved ones and they still can't see ya My cousin always hittin' my line He askin' me for paper He wanna be a rapper, he don't know this shit get deeper Don't understand the craft or what it takes to be a leader He blinded by the ice, you know the hype and all the reefer I ask him "What's your message, what's your passion? 'Cause your lyrics sound like cappin'" Always got your head out, takin' accountability for your actions I be showin' up for people who don't show up for theyselves I gotta stop doin' that, that shit be drainin' my health And I don't do the small talk, spend most time by myself Depressed for so long, I forgot how life really felt Struggled with likin' myself since I was a kid So when y'all give me all that energy I'm feelin' that shit (that shit) Let's go Depression is a bitch, so I'm faded And I don't really care what you sayin' Am I still alive, am I dreamin'? Somebody wake me up if they need me Depression is a bitch, so I'm faded And I don't really like what I'm thinkin' Am I still alive, am I dreamin'? Somebody wake me up if they need me I've been off for some days, sleep it away Hopin' for change, look up, it's no one to blame Tryna find a light up at the end of the tunnel The deeper I get, the more that I struggle Sometimes I wonder who my pops is And why I struggle with my own kids Trials and tribulations of us grown kids Love without conditions, and let's not talk about addictions It runs in my family and I know I ain't missin'