Tierney Terrace

Turn up a lil' bit, uh Uh, I keep my ear to the door holding my brother close He knows I love him most My heart beating I can feel it through this fucking pulse Seeing my mother rose, froze, love of something slows Woes, decompose, muddy clothes and a runny nose Flows, we're shivering, she mistakes it for giggling Mother quivering hopping out the seat that she's sitting in Living in the last few weeks keeping it diligent It's calm under my arm I be popping the Ritalin To keep it smooth Self-medicating to keep me loose I needed proof, needed seeing it to believe it's true I needed you but you're the one that I was grieving to And now you're leaving deep in the evening that we were sleeping through So what are we to do but move with the setting sun Uh, you know I love you like a second mum Love you for better from, now 'til whenever Want the family together I promise you I'ma get it done Trust, 'cause all I wanted was a fucking man To tell the fucking truth, hold my fucking hand Uh, to guide me through the darkness when the others ran Instead, he was sliding and slipping I didn't understand I didn't understand-stand, didn't understand Uh, now every time that motherfucker ran I didn't understand-stand, didn't understand Uh, 'cause every afternoon after school Or at 5:30 if it was after basketball They'd be waiting up at the gate with an article They picked up on the way down And read it to me the second we were leaving the playground That grey sound never stop until we're forced to stop Corner shop, buying fruit and veg? Nah, of course we're not Just a couple steady snacks for the journey heading back Full of the sugar so our teeth, yes of course they rot Sit for hours, sun, thunderstorm or showers In that same living room watching the bloom turn to flowers The night was ours Superpowers and all We were zapping out the window and watching the cowards fall Had it all Powerful, making me tower tall Bountiful from something so small Uh, so I'd rather take the fall and brawl Before I drowned in what I found so cruel Sitting and sipping whiskey like my grandad did Trying to like the life that my grandad lived 'Cause when the black man slipped into the darkness And the black man dipped It didn't matter, had that love I left my grandad with Sip brandy like my grandma do Trying to like the life that my nan told true 'Cause if I run from you she'd hold my hands Until my hands turn blue So I pursue the new, thinking 'bout the man they grew, because Trust, all I wanted was a fucking man To tell the fucking truth, hold my fucking hand Uh, to guide me through the darkness when the others ran Instead, he was sliding and slipping I didn't understand I didn't understand-stand, didn't understand Uh, now every time that motherfucker ran I didn't understand-stand, didn't understand Uh, now believe me I need a fucking man Trust, 'cause all I wanted was a fucking man To tell the fucking truth, hold my fucking hand Uh, to guide me through the darkness when the others ran Instead, he was sliding and slipping I didn't understand I didn't understand-stand, didn't understand Uh, now every time that motherfucker ran I didn't understand-stand, didn't understand Uh, now believe me I need a fucking man