Cost of Living

Held by air An hour before dawn I knew you'd find me there Too tired to carry on another night, I swear It's not the way I thought I'd get your care Because when I dwell The bass strings in my chest break where your cold hand fell Don't wish me all the best when I can't wish you well. I'm trying to shake the stories I can't tell. And tell me now, Could this be the cost of living, Trying to drown it out, To forget without forgiving, And I wonder now, Because I'm trying to stay aware, How could I be hiding If I know you'll find me there Heavy tears, Or scattered coins in rain, What have I earned this year? The seasons feel the same, seasons of shame my dear I'm trying to find the sunshine if it's near In light of day, The shadows in your eyes will never fade away, They're veiled by the disguise of all the things you say I'm trying to find the strength to look away And tell me now, Could this be the cost of living, Trying to drown it out To forget without forgiving And I wonder now Because I'm trying to stay aware How could I be hiding If I know you'll find me there