The Ceiling Is So Far Away

I'm looking up and the ceiling is so far away I don't believe 'em when they tell me hope's a call away And now I'm wondering if hell is such an awful place Because this room is worse than anything I've grown to hate Lonely fate had to live it Fell in love with bad decisions I ain't have no guidance or reminders of the path of wisdom Maybe it don't exist or maybe I'm stuck here alone because it is what it is I guess it is what it should be Need somebody to push me off the highest peak I'll hide deceit, decide I'm a rookie In a world full of hate but I despise 'em the most And I ain't see the sky in weeks yet I've been flying off zo Looking down and my phone is always dry I hate it I'm in my head up out the way, they lie in conversations On rare occasions say they fuck with me until they losing touch with me And now I'm going off the walls and can't evade it I'm spiraling and hallucinating my eyelids are losing patience I'm slipping out conscientiousness while my thoughts degrading In reality nobody sees what I've been facing And even if they did I bet no one would ever try to save me