Too many times

There's so many times that I, that I have lost my mind Whoever wonders that I, can't ask, but I can't lie I've tried saving my face, but not sure that's what I wanted No, I, oh, I, I thought I did before This life ain't what you asked as I thought out loud I travelled far for this, do you wonder why I still drown? And I hold my breath when I take a chance, you're too used to this now When there's no air left, well, who's pulling me up? Mm I could tell that I'm missed, I'm surely damned But that won't ever stop me I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now I could tell in the midst, I'm surely down But that won't ever stop me I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now What you say, this ain't right, this went left Coming back home, I ain't got time for this Who you love, who you blame, who asked for this? When did you make up your mind that I had time for this? Been too long, two months, but now I called you up Yeah, you were there, but you knew nothing about me How'd you learn if you don't hear the words I said? Maybe you could feel it through my pain instead I could tell that I'm missed, I'm surely damned But that won't ever stop me I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now I could tell in the midst, I'm surely down But that won't ever stop me I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now