I Don't Know!

My dad slapped me I slapped him back With a hammer this time yeh that's what's up I had to (cheat to ask him) pass it back But he didn't stand up guess that's his luck Sorry daddy, never meant to hurt you I was angry when I was on curfew You don't worry They're coming to nurse you Ay ay ay Mommy's gonna flip Cops on the watch with their guns on hip I slip Looking for me so I run more quick Nearly outta rev so I slip and slide to side Jackson five style and I Pause for a minute so I can replenish all of my fellas tell me to go for the killin Cause when the cops go for the villain they don't play Any music I use in the blue with just sirens I'm designed to be violent High in a tower block hidin You can see the blood on my denim I can smell em getting closer I don't know see I just wanna dead em I don't know will I go to heaven When I see fully at this rate at this rate That I won't see me a next day My life aint worth it The why I've surfaced to this earth I wish I misbirthed And is sick to know I stick to this world And who knows if it's this I deserve I deserve anguished stick to hit nerves If not so I slit my wrist first But still I find them fire, no violence Yet till I go back to the wife or should I tell her Telling her is not gonna make this no better If things don't change betta call my land in the south For I'm still the man of the house My son 3 years of age (I don't know) No family (I don't know) I'm havin A Bad life so I need to know (I don't know) Should I get a reverend? I don't know Will I go to heaven I don't know See I just wanna dead em I don't know Will I go to heaven I don't know What I say or do Is the same as usual May just boo you on stage assuming You're makin tunes just to make the news With some 'hey I'm beautiful' Take a few with you I ain't amused I'm payin my dues You're makin a fool Too many who bruise when You really abusin You stay with your views I'll stay in my room You're too lame and you're stupid You make me wanna fight Make me wanna war See a body on the floor See a trolley in the morgue Anybody have a sword? To break this chain off Somebody please help me Take this brain off I feel like a slave that's chained to hate That's trained to mate This brain of ape No can, can take this pain away So I pray and wait on a rainy day and say I just wanna dead em I don't know Will I go to heaven? I don't know See I just wanna dead em I don't know Will I go to heaven? I don't know