I'll Never Know

I remember the room With the TV on And you sitting asleep before you were gone We watched Thousands Cheer and Lily Mars Strike Up the Band and Babes in Arms Brush light on the walls Crash against the glass And I'd watch your ash Fall into your lap I loved to watch the ghosts Of cigarette smoke Turning lithe and blue And I loved the time we spent alone That you never knew Now I have a room with a TV on I try to stay awake before I'm gone Sometimes I don't but I can feel you there When I'm losing track and I don't react My mothers ghost Of cigarette smoke curling calm and blue And I love us being alone in the TV glow When I think you don't know but you do