Pity Party

I woke up in the morning And I felt the urge to fall off My bed so I could maybe Have a good reason to call off The things I had to do that day The places that I had to be The things I had to say I sat there for an hour As the sun was slowly rising Growing up, it ain't as good As they were advertising The same routine put on replay I close my eyes while wishing I might up and float away And I know it's ungrateful To be so very hateful At this age, but Give me a break I'm allowed to feel I'm allowed to steal A couple of moments for myself To wish I could be, like, anywhere else I'm allowed to say That I'm not okay Don't make me put it back on the shelf Bring out the cake and balloons It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party And I threw it for me It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party (and it's blue as can be) I'm working for somebody Putting money in their pocket My stress level's been climbing Higher than a flipping rocket I'm trying not to lose my brain Staring a screen for hours Man, I'm bout to go insane I tell myself to suck it up And take it like a woman But I look into the mirror And I think, "What am I doing?" I'm watching all my dreams just fade And it kills me deep inside to think I'm still chasin' a grade So is it all that shameful To say my days are painful At this age? Give me a break I'm allowed to feel I'm allowed to steal A couple of moments for myself To wish I could be, like, anywhere else I'm allowed to say That I'm not okay Don't make me put it back on the shelf Bring out the cake and balloons It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party And I threw it for me It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party (and it's blue as can be) I'm allowed to feel I'm allowed to steal A couple of moments for myself To wish I could be, like, anywhere else I'm allowed to say That I'm not okay Don't make me put it back on the shelf Bring out the cake and balloons It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party And I threw it for me It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party And it's blue as can be It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party And I threw it for me It's a pity party It's a pity party It's a pity party And it's blue as can be