Addicted

My lean's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out bed at all 3.5 clouds up my window, and I can't see at all Yea I ain't never felt real love no I won't never understand Start my day off with a backwood then I fill it up with grams I was tryna show you love but I don't know where we stand I been doubting myself I ain't been feeling like the man I been smoking on this weed been doing drugs so I can cope Tryna drop all my addictions I feel like i'm losing hope I been feeling like i'm battling with my back against the ropes I was asking for your love you turned around and told me no I was on the couch with lati, I was telling her bout my problems And I told her how the drugs the only way that I can solve em Got a couple dead homies, I'm just wishing I could call em And if I lost it all, like who all this shit gon fall on They say two wrongs don't make it right But I been fighting all my life Am I gone live through the night? I don't know Is love really worth it in the end? I ain't too fond of making of friends Can I ever trust you again? I don't know Said I been dwelling on my past I been so focused on my bag Am I gone make it or gone crash? I don't know Said I been living like i'm dying Opps tryna take me, keep on trying Was you real or was you lying? I don't know It's some shit that I don't know It's some shit I can't explain How my lil brother got shot Why they hit him in his brain And I smoke on all these drugs just so I can ease my pain Been having talks with my reaper starting to think that I ain't sane I ain't had real love unless I got it from my mama I done felt real pain it's like my life been filled with trauma I been ducking all the bullshit I don't too much deal with drama And i'm feeling just like Future tryna stack up all these commas On these drugs everyday so I don't think back on my past How the hell you do me wrong, I put you first, you put me last Tryna numb all my pain so I been smoking on this gas I been having talks with god say I can hope these feelings past Do you really love me? I come from the streets shit can get ugly I know shit get hard girl just trust me I'm on these drugs cus they love me They say two wrongs don't make it right But I been fighting all my life Am I gone live through the night? I don't know Is love really worth it in the end? I ain't too fond of making of friends Can I ever trust you again? I don't know Said I been dwelling on my past I been so focused on my bag Am I gone make it or gone crash? I don't know Said I been living like i'm dying Opps tryna take me, keep on trying Was you real or was you lying? I don't know