If You Only Knew

I walked by that old café, the one we used to go to I won't lie, you should've seen my face, I thought I saw you My mind, was in denial but now I wanna talk Oh, why? I guess I missing you more than I thought Wish that I wasn't so guarded Is it too late to be honest? 'Cause if you only knew, knew I was drownin' Dancing around the ugly truth I'm not blaming you 'Cause I had my demons You just need to see them like I do If I could go back and change one thing Wouldn't had buried my secrets I'd write you a letter about everything Holding my breath while you read it If you only knew I might still have you (drowning) Been through steps one and two of grief, I'm going through it Are you still bargaining like me, then feeling stupid? About the should'ves, the could'ves, the what ifs, the but ifs, the maybes It's hard to accept that it could've been amazing 'Cause if you only knew Knew I was drownin' Dancing around the ugly truth I'm not blaming you 'Cause I had my demons You just need to see them like I do If I could go back and change one thing Wouldn't had buried my secrets I'd write you a letter about everything Holding my breath while you read it If you only knew I might still have you (drowning) If you only knew Knew I was drowning Dancing around the ugly truth I'm not blaming you 'Cause I had my demons You just need to see them like I do If I could go back and change one thing Wouldn't had buried my secrets I'd write you a letter about everything Holding my breath while you read If you only knew I might still have you If you only knew I might still have you