Self Sabotage

I wish my head had a trap-door For when I need escaping Can't live with myself anymore Feels like I'm suffocating Tight spaces, breathing in exhaust Spiraling in negative thoughts Hostage, duct-taped in the garage A master of self-sabotage I don't, I don't know how to let somebody know I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat And I was talking to a friend About my situation He's been exactly where I've been Familiar isolation A basket case for days on end A prison of comparisons Hostage, duct-taped in the garage A master of self-sabotage I don't, I don't know how to let somebody know I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat Gaslit by my mirror makes me wish that I was someone else I know that I can't love her until I decide to love myself Gaslit by my mirror makes me wish that I was someone else I know that I can't love her until I decide to love myself I don't, I don't know how to let somebody know I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat And so the plot thickens again I'm both villain and victim Drunk on lonely entitlement Wanting someone to listen I'm screaming from the inside-out Hover above, then come back down I'm not some narcissistic God Abandon this self-sabotage Abandon this self-sabotage Abandon this self-sabotage Abandon this self-sabotage Abandon this self-sabotage