To B. or Not to B.

Nighttime's when I see the memories best I see them all the time, night's when they manifest I lay in bed as they invade my head So real I can almost feel your flesh Our lips locked as our fingers meshed I kissed your breasts like they were the last food on Earth left I stayed up while you slept to listen to your breath Then I heard the sound of drums coming from my chest No rest, awake till daybreak Tongues exploring Tongues done talking Mind is running Knowing that we've walked into something awesome Shunning caution Aflame Amazed by the things that take place A present from heaven in a Venus-shaped case Come to grace this lonely man's lowly space Too much to take so I just gaze at your face As we lay waist to waist And you don't budge You look straight back at me with eyes filled with love Our lips touch like wet paintbrushes We kiss and hug and lick and suck And paint each other the same color Candlelit Feeling like I'm dreaming Intertwined shadows creeping the ceiling We hold tight You and me come Two become one as the moon becomes sun And after the rapture dies down Just like before we ever lied down I glow cuz I feel like I've found my soulmate Somebody that's mine now To share the sights and sounds with which life surrounds You make everything feel like the first time You make me so happy it hurts to smile Feels like we've known each other forever, so at ease I missed twenty years, one look put me up to speed And when we connect for that short time Everything against us floats out of sight, out of mind. Funny how me and you always equals deja vu More sleepless nights, but this time no table for two And in the place you once laid your head next to me Now lays the ghost that you left when you left It caresses me then off I doze into the cosmos I'm on top, it's below Biting my collarbone and moaning Then I'm woken by a phone that's not ringing A brain that won't stop thinking A clock that won't stop ticking Waterdrops that won't stop dripping Life wouldn't have been better if I never met you The pain was worth it for the pleasure But now I'm left to wonder whether we'll ever be together Am I just a dumb motherfucker for getting in the center Of a man, woman and child situation So yall weren't in relations Is there a place in that equation for me? Was I the third leg awaiting amputation? maybe But you made me feel like I had a stake And James needs no explanation I came too late, and just early enough to get my heart taken Of course I understand, the other man has the upper hand He was your past, chance flung him back like a rubber band I guess we both knew I'd have to go soon It just felt so good, we held on as long as we could And prayed for a miracle Instead the unthinkable, rendering everything else miniscule Sure, we had a bond, but yall bond was umbilical So I give you room Cuz I know how difficult it must have been to lose And the only thing simple about this whole issue Is the fact I miss you Some people come in your life for a reason Have a little fun, make a point then leave And some people come and stick around for a season Fade out before they go and get too deep in And then one person hangs on for the whole nine The lows, the highs, the ride of a lifetime I watch you stumble through the dark alone In the aftermath of the blast, trying to grasp for a hold And it's been a long road Twisted and cold You were 19 feeling like 90 years old But I want you to know that you've touched my soul Something stronger than steel More precious than gold It was true romance Crappy circumstance Still you walked with me, still you gave me a chance And for that I'm forever grateful Forever faithful Forever happy's what I'll make you But alas, no dice I guess Oh well, I tried my best, that's life, I guess A whole bunch of decisions you thought you'd never have to deal with Leading to a grip of positions you hoped you'd never be in And I know at times it's all seemingly meaningless But remember everything happens for a reason Just never forget the feeling we give each other And I'll see you someday, one way or another The same love that set me free Is the same love that won't let me be To B. or not to B. I guess we'll see I guess we'll see The same love that set me free Is the same love that won't let me be To B. or not to B. I guess we'll see I guess we'll see The same love that set me free Is the same love that won't let me be To B. or not to B. I guess we'll see I guess we'll see The same love that set me free Is the same love that won't let me be To B. or not to B. I guess we'll see