Conquest of Paradise

Each day I dig my own grave In hopes my sanity will be saved After everyone and everything has let me down I sink into the sorrow that holds me a slave In a crowded room screaming Just help me please They turn a deaf ear as I fall to my knees Just help me, please These are years of anger and frustration Ive become a victim of my own vindication With lack of trust, I left my brain away from me outside I go in my thoughts, that is where i hide Though they'll forget what they have done throughout these horrid years I count the number of days, I will not forget my tears Everyday I bite my tongue So my wasted words don't hurt no one After everything I've loved has been taken from me The lonely mess pulls me into oblivion In a crowded room screaming Just help me please They turn a deaf ear as I fall to my knees Just help me, please These are years of anger and frustration Ive become a victim of my own vindication With lack of trust, I left my brain away from me outside I go in my thoughts, that is where i hide Though they'll forget what they have done throughout these horrid years I count the number of days, I will not forget my tears A lie is left of memories of my unhappy past I try to not to hold on to them, but they keep fading fast Damn these scars you've given me They will forever last These are years of anger and frustration Ive become a victim of my own vindication With lack of trust, I left my brain away from me outside I go in my thoughts, that is where i hide Though they'll forget what they have done throughout these horrid years I count the number of days, I will not forget my tears