Look for the Woman

There's a weight over me today Something I have to say Love you too much to leave Don't like you enough stay My head's in a mess and I'm stressed But I guess it's a test in this quest for happiness And the rest of that mess so I'd best just aquiescue Even though I've grown tired of you And that ain't meant sound spiteful I'm just trying to be insightful When I write all my emotions in the night All the stuff I try to fight will just come out And the sad fact is; I'm so tired of you Love, It's a weird thing ain't it? There's no way to explain it But I swear as well as pain There should be joy but we sustain The same level of mundane And it's numbing me through I Often wonder if I'd miss you As to have the urge to kiss you When an issue has to hit through To this heart that now feels disused And said issue was to big to just ignore And I walked out on you But chances are I'd fall apart And suffer seizures of the heart As my chest begins to smart The very second I'd depart I want to go back to the start But then again, maybe I'd just feel new Maybe I'd get my life on track And start to focus my attack On all the things my life just lacks And start to claw my passion back Instead of living like hack, Half commited, half relaxed I'd have nothing to lose. There's a weight over me today Something I have to say Love you too much to leave Don't like you enough to stay I guess lately I've had to much time to think And, yeah, Way to much to drink When paper meets the ink Overthinking is the chink in my armor That's just what I do. And I've always been that way Forever questioning each day And every plea that's made that maybe when I lay my busy mind will make me prove By finding problems and reasons that might not even be true See, we got togather so young, before our real lives had begun But flowers don't grow up as one, Each finds it's own way to the sun And that's exactly what we've done, We've grown up seperately too, And for a few years now, It's been a problem And these realizations, I wish that I could stop them But I've realized that love is all we have in common And deep down you know that's true. But then surely that I'm still in love with you Means there's something we can do to get us through and to pursue a brand new poin of view on how this gap grew between me and you So There's a weight over me and I'd hate to have to leave But in fate I don't believe And the state of you and me Isn't great as you can see So I'll keep thinking this through. There's a weight over me today It's something I have to say Love you too much to leave Don't like you enough to stay