Positive

Make me, make me sweat till I'm wet, till I'm dry But then wipe this tear from my eye Haven't felt this warm in a long time Even out in the bright sunshine in a lifetime of springtime I fall into your arms With my heart pumpin' on Like a bubblin' dub track Like a garlicky hot tongue and lip smack I did some contemplation Before we got down to this consecration Maybe baby, somethin' in your kiss said It was an impetuous for me to re-think this If I love you Then I better get tested Make sure we're protected I walk through the park Dressed like a question mark Hark! I hear my memory back In the back of my brain Makin' me insane like cocaine But how am I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How am I gonna live my life if I'm positive? But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive? It dawned on me, it seemed to me This is unusual scenery This red light greenery, make me feel kinda dreamery Thinkin' how I used to be Arrive at the clinic, walk through the front door Take a nervous number Then I think some more about all the time That I neglected, makin' sure that I was protected They took my blood With an anonymous number Two weeks waitin', wonderin' I should-a done this a long time ago A-lot of excuses why I couldn't go I know, these things and these things, I must know 'Cause it's better to know than to not know! But how am I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How am I gonna live my life if I'm positive? But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive? I go home to kick it in my apartment I try to give myself a risk assessment The wait is what can really annoy ya Every single day is more paranoia I'm readin' about how it's transmitted Some behavior I must admit it Who I slept with, who they slept with Who they, who they, who they slept with? I think about life and immortality What's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V. I have a cry and tell my mother Get on the phone and call my past lovers I never thought about infectin' another All the times that I said, 'Hmm, don't bother' Was it really all that magic? The times, I didn't use a prophylactic Would my whole life have to change? Or would my whole life remain the same? Sometimes it makes me wanna shout! All these things too hard to think about A day to laugh, a day to cry A day to live and a day to die Till I find out, I may wonder But I'm not gonna live my life six feet under But how am I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How am I gonna live my life if I'm positive? But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive?