Letter to My Ol' Dude

I miss you like a mufucka But I'll shoot you a few words, you hear me This letter to my ol' dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down Its been a minute since we kicked it, I don't know where to start But I'ma grab this paper and pen and write with my heart At first, I ain't understanding I'm like why he leaving Remember that night so vivid Buy you Adidas I lost my mufuckin' man after that Didn't know how to handle my feelings, so I start puttin' them in raps That's where it all started Never thought you'd be gone by the time I got retarded First they took New New then Goose Mojos next Now I'm strapped tellin' niggas watch they neck Still aiming for a letter, so I put these words together Tryin' to find my way in this cold lonely world Had a baby boy but I couldn't witness his birth I was looked up in that cell so my feelings was hurt Couldn't bless him with my presents So I blessed him with presents Every time I go to church, it's like I'm beefing with reverends This letter to my ol' dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down This letter to my ol' dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down Every time I see your friends, they say you look like your daddy I got the world on my shoulders I been stressin' so heavy This lifestyle that I'm living Your nephew back in prison Your sisters doing cool Both of the girls they in school Lil' bros they doin' a'ight They just need a little push That's why I'm out here rapping so they won't take the path I took Tryin' not to go back to prison I wanna hear my momma mouth and John doing all right Just dropped him off from robbing house Just doing what I got, I had to take care of a few things Grandma, grandad still doin' they same routine Some days I wish you was here so I could hug you I respectively so much that women love you Been out of prison six months Just enjoying my freedom Your grandson, a handful I wish you could meet him I wish you could see me, I got bands and shit Plus we really doing music we got fans and shit This letter to my ol' dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down This letter to my ol' dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down Toya like a sister to me out here Just live Ilene talking to uncle You know what I'm sayin' Kiv, Wayne, Foon I love you P.S I'ma man now This letter to my ol' dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down This letter to my ol' dude I just wanna update you on the latest news And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down