Heartblind

People say that I can find the truth Wherever I search for it For every question in life there has to be an answer That's supposed to set me free Whatching myself in a mirror And inquiring eyes are starring back at me Digging deep inside my heart and mind and soul But there seems to be no answer to be found If there's one thing I've learned about this misery It's that I have to be true in every way I must be heartblind, something inside has changed I'm tired of asking myself Is it the end now or is it a passing phase Someday I will know my heart im sure, someday I will know my heart I know myself so well from inside out That's what I thought before I lost ground And everything that once was so clear Is now reflecting in your fallen tears Oh how can I be honest when I don't belive myself I've lost faith in what I feel and what I say