Who I Am

As these judging eyes surround me And silence tearing me apart Only seeing to the surface They refuse to see my heart In this mould that they have made me Tried so hard to fit in tight Every day's a punishment For being human, but the wrong kind All their heavy words I carry Try to grind them down to dust But the pile's getting so deep Pretty soon it's gonna bury us I see two paths that sit before me The decision's mine to make Do I wear the mask and follow Or pay the price of bеing brave? These wounds aren't healing And I am scared to death That I'll look into the mirror And believe the things they've said No, I wasn't ready for the shame so heavy, maybe they will never understand Can't keep facing this fire, I'm so damn tired Of being who I am No need to say that I'm immoral No need to tell me I'm a freak Don't waste your breath, you made that more than clear In the way you looked at me The only choices that you give me Two different ways I can be killed Hate my life for being fake Or hate myself for being real These wounds aren't healing And I am scared to death That I'll look into the mirror And believe the things they've said No, I wasn't ready for the shame so heavy, maybe they will never understand Can't keep facing this fire, I'm so damn tired (Of being who I am) Every day I wanna die, but nobody helps 'Cause they're too busy praying, I'll be someone else Every day is full of pain that they have never felt But they're too busy praying, I'll be someone else These wounds aren't healing And I am scared to death That I'll look into the mirror And believe the things they've said No, I wasn't ready for the shame so heavy, maybe they will never understand Can't keep facing this fire, I'm so damn tired Of being who I am