True Ending (Ending 2 of 2)

I did it again

Raced towards the end

Forgot to stop and smell the falling leaves

And just pressed send

I did it for me

Forgot to say please

Everyone else in my way

They didn't matter anyways

Oh what I'd do to find the right pathway to take for me

And a pleasant ending kind and sweet

Or just a hit of dopamine

Thought I was smart I thought that I was self aware

But retrospectively I was only 2 feet in the air

God Damnit Jesus Christ

I don't want this to be how I die

Unimportant but still remembered

Burnt down into ashes and embers

God Damnit Jesus Christ

My ideals are nothing but lies

Spent a decade stepping backwards

But still never finding the right words

Break your neck looking back

Try to escape from your past

Spend a few years cutting slack

And eventually accept

While your temple starts to worsen

Your world it still has purpose

Find your faith inside your interests

At least for me I think that's working

You will never ever get a chance to breathe

And you will never ever learn what this all means

You will never no matter how clever

Change your past cause it's forever

So wake up smell the flowers and brush your teeth

Wake up fuck the maze and eat the cheese

Wake up take a breath and go back to sleep

Oh I'm Self Sufficient but I'm not truly living

When I'm on my own don't leave me alone

I need someone to help me when I'm not in my body

And I lose control don't leave me alone

I found the world keeps spinning

With or without me living

All night long it's off and on

All night long it's off and on

All night long it's off and on

Off and on it's off and on

All night long it's off and on

All night long it's off and on

All night long it's off and on

I did it again skipped towards the end

Forgot to smell the burning leaves

And called up a few friends

We had a nice day

Regaining my faith

I regret things I did and said

But in the end I'd do it all again