The Cursed One

What I'm feeling lately Made me Acting sort of shady Mainly I've been going crazy baby Daily All I do is Changing Fading Failing Only to begin again It makes me Sick to my core Can't take it no more Oh I need to ignore The voices in my head I'm becoming sober I feel so alone now Maybe if I tried to change myself It would be over Fuck that! I don't see any red flags Too bad I'm not part of your concept I'm becoming well aware of my missteps To sad you're not ready to get That Regrets on my mind Crawl like insects Confessed to a crime But was innocent But I guess That the truth is irrelevant What I'm feeling lately made me Acting sort of shady All I know self-control's complicated Daily baby I've been going crazy One day I slip I'm so addicted to the pain Becoming sober now In a second all comes crashing down Stuck on repeat again I cannot control myself Drawn the worst I'm trapped in my head And it's going to burst and I know I'm the cursed one Slowly all these thoughts Really start to concern me Please You should stay out of my way Cause I feel like I'm already burning Will I ever learn it? What I'm feeling lately made me Acting sort of shady All I know self-control's complicated Daily baby I've been going crazy One day I slip I'm so addicted to the pain I gotta deal with all this shit somehow And l fear that I won't make it out Gotta deal with all this shit somehow You are never gonna break me down I'm becoming sober I feel so alone now Never been able to, So unavailable I am not ready to change