Anxiety

You suffer from anxiety You like the whole world right in your hands But you don't know what to do with it Yeah I lay in bed and I start to overthink I'm tryna to clear my mind but it seems I'm on the brink Of losing all I got cause my illness kicking in I'm hoping for the best, but can't ever seem to win You ever get the feeling that nobody ever cares? You ever sit and wonder what's your purpose to be here? As I stare at my reflection, I don't like what I've become I'm at war inside my head, all this hurt has got me numb I worry way too much now, my heart is racing fast I can't seem to concentrate, always stressing to the max My palms are looking sweaty, I pretend that I'm okay Then I walk outside the door, fake a smile and turn away My body gets the shakes, I'm confused and unaware Do they love me, do they hate me? I've been living in my fear Change can be so scary when your past is traumatized You can tell I lack expression, I'm a demon in disguise You can't understand the pain deep inside of me What it's like tryna deal with this anxiety And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off Another panic attack, I'm about to relapse You can't understand the pain deep inside of me What it's like tryna deal with this anxiety And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off Another panic attack, I'm about to relapse I'm nervous for my future, I do not feel inspired My life is like a movie that I've seen too many times Lock myself inside my room 'cause I need my space alone I'm constantly reminded in the end I'm on my own Each day I'm getting weaker, you can tell that I am tense My last break up was hard, we just could not make amends I'm blaming my depression and I blame everyone else I can make nobody happy with this self-inflicted doubt And lately I don't know how much more of it I can take I'm wanting to collapse but I'm destined to be great They tell me I should chill but don't ever wanna wait Are you anxious? Are you sad? Are you wanting to escape? I've been at rock bottom now I'm tryna reach the surface Anxiety, anxiety, it's got me feeling worthless I take a deep breath, but ill never be alright So I'm turning to the music cause legit it saved my life You can't understand the pain deep inside of me What it's like tryna deal with this anxiety And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off Another panic attack, I'm about to relapse You can't understand the pain deep inside of me What it's like tryna deal with this anxiety And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off Another panic attack, I'm about to relapse You can't understand the pain deep inside of me What it's like tryna deal with this anxiety And every night it makes it hard for me to doze off Another panic attack I'm about to relapse...