Shedding My Skin

I'm drinking joe, staying up for days Wishing and wanting though I never will change And as I sit all alone it takes a toll I got nowhere to run as the time unfolds Ya see, after the war the smoke will have to clear I'm shedding my skin to start anew my dear I'll find a better life and I'll say it's nice As I lie through my teeth just to get right through the night I'm going back to all I ever knew, back to the times when I knew that it was true I knew that in time these things could be fine, as I just sit I watch the buildings collide But see I was thinking and wishing and wanting, hoping that this all could be true Things are easier to say then to do I sit and doubt though it starts to consume, all I do is just sit and I think, I think about you See I find it funny, it's kinda strange, I'm thinking of better days, and I go back on all that I say But I got to, take a turn, before I burn Shedding my skin so I can start to learn I'll find a better way, to come back today, changing my ways And I wish that I could go back, but I know I ain't the same And that's ok with me, sit back and take my time And invade my thoughts as I just jump inside I'll find the truth, you'll see, and I'll find some life in me Drop all this hate so I can live so peacefully But see, I'm going back to all I ever knew, back to the times when I thought that it was true I thought that in time that these things would be fine, as I just sat I watched the buildings collide But see I was thinking and wishing and wanting, hoping that this all could be true Things were easier to say then to do. I sit and doubt though it starts to consume All I do is just sit and I think, I think about you See I find it funny, it's kinda strange, I'm thinking of better days, but I'd go back on all that I'd say And she said it was so It's kinda sad to hear ya saying his name I'm digging deeper as I'm bleeding I'm feeling a change I'm going back and forth and thinking that I want it F*** what cha say because I know you're gonna flaunt it My hands were shaking from the feelings I felt that day I might be strong but now I know that I'm never the same I sat around but now I'm thinking of change and s*** I know the truth with no one else to blame Sit around, screaming your name and hoping that things could be fine I'm shedding my skin to help you see inside and as I tear down your walls all I see are these lies Ya see, I'm going back to all I ever knew, and back to the times When I thought, that this s***, it was true Because I thought that in time, these things could be fine But as I stood I watched the buildings collide But see I was thinking and wishing and wanting, hoping that this all could be true Things were easier to say then to do I sat and doubt as it starts to consume, all I do is just sit and I think... well I thought... I thought about you I find it funny, it's kinda strange, I'm thinking of better days Find it so kinda strange, I'm thinking of better days I found it kinda strange, I'm thinking of better days... And know that I won't be the same