Slow Burn

It begins with a dark glowing ember

Something black burning its way out of me

Searing the flesh

Pain is the only thing I feel, scars all I see

Oh no the fire's burning my insides again

What can I do to silence my desire tonight?

Flames consuming reason, leaving only ashes left

You won't catch me regretting my decision

I can't keep telling myself

What I wanna to hear (What I wanna hear)

I can't just close my eyes

I know that it's killing me

And it's poisoning the best of me

What I say I don't want to believe

So let me tell you boy, tell you boy

About the lies I lead

That is how I chose to douse the flames in gasoline

Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head

Wreckage from the past, it haunts me, shakes me to the bone

(TO THE BONE)

I know it's over but I can't go home tonight

But after this, I feel as empty as the night before

Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more

Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thoughts

My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it

I can't keep telling myself

What I wanna to hear (What I wanna hear)

I can't just close my eyes

(Close my eyes, close my eyes, my fucking eyes)

I know that it's killing me

And it's poisoning the best of me

What I say (WHAT I SAY)

I don't want to believe (WANT TO BELIEVE)

So let me tell you boy, tell you boy

About the lies I lead

Calling, calling out

The darkest reaches of my soul

I'm riddled with self-doubt

Crawling, crawling out

My will to fight will more than suffice

When others would lay down

It's only as dark as you make it

I know (I KNOW)

That it's killing me (IT'S KILLING ME)

And it's poisoning (IT'S POISONING)

The best of me (THE BEST OF ME)

Hey-hey-hey, what I say (WHAT I SAY)

I don't want to believe (WANT TO BELIEVE)

So let me tell you boy, tell you boy

About the lies I lead (LIES I LEAD)