If I Should (feat. Joseph Kay)

Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Yahh What is life if you can't make the most of it? What is love if you can't get a hold of it? What's a smile if you're not really happy? Wake up everyday with a frown feeling crappy Tell me what is laughter when you just wanna' cry And life is a disaster and you just wanna' die Nobody understands how you feel deep inside But you gotta' stay strong with your head held high I got so many questions Yeah, why is life such a bitch when you least expect it? And how does everybody have it all figured out As I sit and pout this shits so depressing, fuck I'm so emotional I guess these are the thoughts of a broken soul With a broken heart, outspoken mind I'm trying to find who I am on this path of mine But I don't know, I don't know It's been a long time since I felt like myself I might as well grab the nine and take the safety off And let the bullet pierce right through my scalp Shit, I need help Shit, I need help Shit, I need help I don't really know who the fuck I could turn to I try to take my time and listen to advice, see I was told patience is a virtue But I'm sick and tired of being sick of life Fuck tomorrow I wanna' die tonight Fuck the future Fuck the present Fuck the drama yo fuck the stressing Fuck the judgments Fuck assumptions Fuck the ones who made me feel like nothing Fuck 'em all yo I'm done talking stay the fuck away when I'm inside my coffin yeah Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Yahh Everyday is a burden for me So many regrets it discourages me Like where would I be if I didn't drop out And I kept taking classes and grandma was proud? And where would I be if my father was here? And mom was with him and their love was sincere No fucking divorce No need for the courts Together forever they fought through the storms They fought through it all Yeah, through the trials of love they ain't never quit But it's sad to say that that's not the case Cause they broke apart that shit makes me pissed Yo, fuck Yo, fuck Do I give up or do I stand on my feet? Do I give in to the hardships of life living every single day as I die on my knees Shit, what should I do? What should I do? Do I hold on to this thing called life? Do I stay strong when there's tears in my eyes? Do I move on when I'm hurting inside? Where do I go? Where do I go? Under the ground when I'm finally at peace Away from the world, away from the sorrow and pain That's been hidden within me so deep oh lord Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here