So Cold (feat. Ben Cocks)

Oh, you can't hear me cry See my dreams all die From where you're standing On your own It's so quiet here And I feel so cold This house no longer Feels like home I know some things may never change But im lookin out for the better days I drink sometimes just to hide the pain But i swear im tryna change my ways But the rain enough to wash away all the hurtful things ive had to say But bay i am tryna stay your way but my problems are just soo much to tame Sometimes i freak cuz i think too much i get in the mood and i dont care enough But dont think i ever lost my love cuz maybe just in a rutt Or maybe ill just Never be enough its hard to say its crazy tough Blowing up my mind but im thinkin maybe im not meant to love My friends they always say yo tweak wheres the others? Get your head out of that studio and go visit your mother Maybe tell her why youve always been so mean to your little brother Hey tweak why dont you ever even give a call to your sister She used to be your favorite person now a personal heart killer Man i just dont know what couldve happened to your head Went from sleepin all night peaceful to a gun right by your bed Paranoia got you all confused and you were sober why your eyes so red? Oh, you can't hear me cry See my dreams all die From where you're standing On your own It's so quiet here And I feel so cold This house no longer Feels like home One time i was a depressed kid growing up without my father Yeah i was a trouble maker but a lonely little toddler Big thank you to my mother cuz id be stuck out in that gudder Id still be locked up in a cell just tryna fix my studder Biological father Ive messaged you on facebook and it took you 2 years to acknowledge it I guess you better stay put You hear that baby screaming yeah thats me i was 2 U know im 23 now nope you prolly have no clue I was bullied every day and no one cared what i had to say That school never woulda noticed if i woulda died in that hallway Smoking when i was 14 i was poppin by the 9th grade I been cheated on and heartbroken had jobs and i never even got paid I been to white pine and i been to every local therapist ive been on every med man they all thought that i was helpless No idea how i ever made it out if reality they wondered how i graduated in the state of my mentality Oh, you can't hear me cry (They said i wouldnt do it) See my dreams all die (Why dont yall look at me now) From where you're standing (thought you said that id be stuck) On your own It's so quiet here And I feel so cold This house no longer Feels like home Uhuhh Uhuhh Uhuhh