Aftermath

It's getting cold, I feel so weak It's hard to move, so hard to speak In standfast time, the halted clock A life-long flaw of giving up What have I done? Why am I here? The last decision is getting near Why am I here? Falling into nothing as far as I can see Trying to make something of insecurities Trying to find my will to be, But left drowning in animosity for myself Everything's mundane Nothing's more than face value Maybe it's time that I disappear I went in with hopes, but I've only found fear I tried so hard, I lost my way Now I can't think of a better day to die The anxiety is killing me again The aftermath is killing me again The aftermath is killing me again