Trauma

I got traumas that I run from, can't let go of all the pain And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I'll be fine I want someone to care, tell me that I'm alright But I'm breaking Hard to deal with what I'm facing And you know my heart's been racing Got too many pills I'm taking, taking Inside, yeah, I keep it inside I bottle emotions and swallow my pride I'm just filling the void with money, cars, and drugs And the women I love, they're just using me up, like It's hard to be sane when everybody wanna try me Friends switch up, now I know they never liked me Been too many times that I'm falling out the deep end Lonely vibes 'cause I'm falling outta sequence I'm running too fast, but I don't know why Even with this cash, I can't get by Everybody talk, they don't know my life But I still try I got traumas that I run from, can't let go of all the pain And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I'll be fine I want someone to care, tell me that I'm alright But I'm breaking Hard to deal with what I'm facing And you know my heart's been racing Got too many pills I'm taking, taking I carry on, but it's so exhausting Dead friends and family on me Barely living, I feel like a zombie I feel invisible, nobody wants me I ruined everything, and I know it's all my fault How can I change when I got these obstacles? It's all in my brain, I got depression in my skull Just wanna escape, but it feels impossible I'm running too fast, but I don't know why Even with this cash, I can't get by Everybody talk, they don't know my life But I still try I got traumas that I run from, can't let go of all the pain And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I'll be fine I want someone to care, tell me that I'm alright But I'm breaking Hard to deal with what I'm facing And you know my heart's been racing Got too many pills I'm taking, taking