I Just Wanna Be "OK"

How can it be that I don't know myself

Running from my emotions I left on the shelf

I don't know what's going on anymore

Searching for answers behind every door

Took a wrong turn strolling down memory lane

And now I'm left here stranded in a world of pain

Close my eyes, click my heels, take me back

Cuz anything is better than feeling that

I keep losing my mind daily

And I wake up feeling crazy

Maybe this is life

Just a normal life

Well life can be so unappealing

If I'm honest I'm so tired of feeling

Everything inside

Just wanna run and hide

I don't think that I'm ok

I feel like I'm not ok

I know that I'm not ok

All the voices inside my head

Keep me up at night in my bed

And tell me throughout my day I'll never be anything, anything

I am drowning in my mind

I just wish I had a sign

To tell me that I'll be ok, Ill take anything anything at all

Looking for a path out of my cluttered mind

But it feels like a cell that keeps me combined

Sorting through messages in my head

All the ones I saw and left on read

Idle time is my key to pandoras box

And here I thought therapy would've changed the locks

I feel like it's pointless for me to go

But the monsters in my mind would steal the show

Racing thoughts continue to pray

On my mind every single day

I tell them go away

But they say they're here to stay

What a funny thing life can be

All I wanted was to be free

Just too much to ask

Life is such a task

All the voices inside my head

Keep me up at night in my bed

And tell me throughout my day I'll never be anything, anything

I am drowning in my mind

I just wish I had a sign

To tell me that I'll be ok, Ill take anything anything at all