Complications

I don't have friends but acquaintances

Sex isn't what I look for in a relationship

I don't have respect but it feels good to find it

Yet I hate it when I feel like I'm being grounded

My dad married what he calls a "dumb bitch" (oh)

Didn't want to pick a side but sometimes I agreed with it

Even though he loved her at the time with only his dick (dick)

Both of their stories differently added up

I can't believe at one time they were so in love

Been on this dying planet for nineteen years

Still don't know enough, I feel like I'm new here

My mom told me every day that the end was near (near)

Kind of hard to tell if you're normal or you're weird (weird)

In my head, I feel like I'm always dead

I don't know how to get rid of the voices in my head

I'm fighting a war with myself that I don't think I can win (nope)

I cried over something so fucking stupid

I was overly depressed and he knew it

I don't want no damn pills to ruin this

Temptation is hard, I should be better than this

I don't know how to be getting it

These sad songs are supposed to be helping kids

How the fuck am I supposed to be getting it?

I keep thinking of who I was and how I instantly regret it

So young and naive, I was filled with shit

I don't know why you're still here

You made me feel less than I am, but you are forgiven

Though I still have a problem with you

(Still have a mega problem with you bro)

You're the ones I should be saying "thank you" too

(Thank you!)

I don't have friends but acquaintances

Sex isn't what I look for in a relationship

I don't have respect but it feels good to find it

Yet I hate it when I feel like I'm being grounded

(Fuck grounding, be like, fuck that shit)

I say I don't have regret but it eats me up

Damn, this depression is fucking tough

(It's fucking tough bro, like for real)

I no longer love the things that I used to

(I actually feel accomplished, the fuck)

Though this storm, I don't know how to make it through

I don't believe in trust, nor myself, neither should you (nope)

Living this life isn't what I'm used to

Living alone, creating beats in my basement room

Self-doubt came and said that I'll never make it through

(Fuck that bitch man)

Turned out it was just a person who made me grew

Her love made me lock myself in my fucking room (eh)

Was it my fault when I looked at her all soft? (nope)

I said nothing 'cause I knew then our love was lost (lost)

I believe my mom loved me for the monthly check (money!)

With ten fucking kids, what the hell you'll expect?

My creatively said it was time to disconnect

When sex was all he came for to collect (eh)

Should've known it was all I had left

I think people should really stop having sex

So that they're not birthing people against their will

You never said death wasn't part of the deal

I thought that when I got here I'll be sending them money

But now they're not my family so I'm giving it to charities

Sending it to my sisters and my brother, not careful

Want my sound to come from the 70s

Not dissing any artist, I love them all respectfully

He almost took my soul and got the best of me

But thankfully he saved, he knew me better (fucking better)

Then the ones who actually gave birth to me (funny)

I'm thankful for the past but it was all bullshit

Court systems, lawyers, and made up shit (fuck that shit)

He had my back since that one day in gym

Even when I told him for me it was the end

Like gifts, I carefully receive my friends

'Cause most of them don't see me in the end (no)

The man I once loved was no longer my father

But instead a selfish goddamn time-keeper

People start saying your parents never raised you right

That you sit down and think about your life

And wonder if you got all the certain times right

(Certain times right)

That once before they never gave it to certain types

And you start thinking what you are now alike

Skin color shouldn't define our will to fight for rights (period)

This shit is depressing

I should be out with my friends celebrating (oh)

I was just happy this fucking morning

Now I'm in my feelings, thanks MGKelly

I don't know why you're still here

(For real bro, don't even know why)

You made me feel less than I am, but you are forgiven

(I guess I'll forgive you)

Though I still have a problem with you

(Like a very big problem, don't test me bro)

You're the ones I should be saying "thank you" too

Thank you