Ever Had You

We like to fight ourselves to sleep Say I hate you like they say I love you There's no need for counting sheep I'll be counting steps 'til we fall through I know that we're on borrowed time You singing to me getting lost downtown Me waking up wearing a smile Anything to push away the doubt Like Maybe you're just working late Or maybe it's not working like it's supposed to You've been busy playing games while I've Been busy playing songs about you I love your voice when you beg me to believe you But we both know I'm no good at that Those eyes wander all the time I know I'm not the only you think of When you're here I forget to mind Forget the fights, forget the lies, get what I want What I want is what we are Midnight moments with your hand in mine Dancing with me by your car Broken hearts under a broken street light So Maybe I just think too much Or maybe you don't try enough or want to Cause even after all this time I know That I don't know you like I'm supposed to I love your voice when you beg me to believe you We both know I'm no good at that I'd be out of my mind to leave you But I'd be even crazier to think I ever had, ever had, ever had you I already feel myself losing you I already feel myself losing you I already feel myself losing you I already feel myself losing you I already feel myself losing you I already feel myself losing you I already feel myself missing you I already feel myself missing you I'm all packed and ready to run before you say goodbye I already bought flowers for our grave, we haven't even died