Dying (feat. Mesus)

Oh, I think, I'm dying All the monsters are here, now Oh, I think I'm dying All the shadows, all around Oh, I think' I'm dying I'm 'onna keep it real What you know 'bout takin' pills Poppin' these Xans, panic attacks Losin' my mind, feel like I'm dyin', ah! I can't believe what I'm sayin' You thinkin' I'm playin' I'm diggin' my grave, right now I'm crazy, you'd probably kill ya'self If you knew the shit that I was thinkin' about Ha! Ha! Why can I breathe? Cuttin' my sleeve I'm watchin' it bleed Maybe, that'll take the pain away No more rainy days Quit talkin' to me Just let me be, I need some sleep Why you think, I cut so deep? You'll never see what's underneath Please, I need some peace I'm 'onna keep it real, I'm 'onna speak how I feel When I'm drivin', feel like swervin' the wheel Right in a lane, man, you think that I'm playin' I'm treatin' every song, like writin' my will, yah! This one right here's for everyone out there That's like me, that battle depression Been to hell and back, and I can tell you That I fell back and, man, I just can't learn my lesson, yah! Countin' my blessings, but suck at the math So, every blessin', I keep cuttin' in half So, all of my problems keep addin' up While my solutions keep cuttin' in half Yah! Yah! Yah! Know that they hate me, they say that they love me They'll call me crazy, but I need the company So fuck with me, though, yah! Oh, I think, I'm dying All the monsters are here, now Oh, I think I'm dying All the shadows, all around Oh, I think I'm dying I'm 'onna keep it a mil Last year, I made a million Still, it ain't change how I feel Still fuckin' with the same bottle of pills Went from my brother's basement To a house with no payments Ain't dealin' with fuckers, that I wanna kill I gotta chill, I don't know how I wish you could feel what I'm talkin' about I'm all by myself, talkin' out loud No one can help, I feel like I'm drownin' Rha! Hah! Shit is so cold, I'm losin' control I'm losin' my soul But, I know I never sold it, no Devil must've stole it, yeah And, that motherfucker's gonna have to deal with me If I go to Hell, I'm takin' over I'm 'onna keep it a secret I ain't gon' tell nobody 'bout these Thoughts that are creepin', into my mind So, you think that I'm fine Or, you think that I'm lying That, I'm cryin' out wolf When I say that I'm dyin' Ah! I ain't gon' tell nobody That I'm scared to keep guns in the house I ain't gon' tell nobody That I actually put guns in my mouth Fuck you know 'bout Russian roulette, with a loaded gun Handle of vodka, and still ain't drunk I ain't gonna tell nobody that I'm suicidal No, I just keep it bottled up Bottle of pills ought'a heal the pain Razor blade cross my vein Cross my heart, hope to die Jumpin' in front of trains No, I'm not fuckin' playin' Snorted a bunch of 'caine Thinkin' it's just a game 'Til I blow out my fuckin' brains Oh, I think, I'm dying All the monsters are here, now Oh, I think I'm dying All the shadows, all around