Scared of Getting What I Want

I'm so scared of getting what I want I'm so scared of seeing where it leads I'm so scared of getting what I want Scared that it's not really what I need I've been in a three day funk Under the summer sun, watchin' the palm trees sway My mom was asking how I was, but she means "How is stuff?" And it's all going great And I'm on the rooftop, I'm not gonna jump I was joking, today was just too long I wrote a new song, but it didn't heal Didn't feel half as real as it used to I'm so scared of getting what I want I'm so scared of seeing where it leads I'm so scared of getting what I want Scared that it's not really what I need Well, I've been in a three day funk Or has it been a month? It's kinda hard to say (hard to say) I remember 21 Blew all my money on a trip to see L.A. (see L.A.) Now, I'm at the penthouse, friend of a friend's So, I guess by extension, we're friends now (by extension, we're friends now) Ain't it a let down? All of the years to be here just to feel like I'm left out (feel like I'm left out) I'm so scared of getting what I want I'm so scared of seeing where it leads, oh I'm so scared of getting what I want Scared that it's not really what I need (scared that it's not really what I need) And I'm so scared I'm gonna fuck it up Every night I'm sweating through the sheets, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh I'm so scared of getting what I want Scared that it's not really what I need It's not really what I need It's not really what I need So, what is it that I need? So, what is it that I need?