why do I still care?

I can take no more All these patterns They just keep on repeating Watching strength just fade away into weakness What's in store? Modern symptomatic So self-defeating And it's a triumph just to focus on breathing But I still care Yeah But I still care Yeah Uh, look Like, do you still care for me? I long for the times you were there for me I hate that I still love about everything about you Without you, I'm missing the rest of me Okay, retrospectively, perspective changes Destiny is better left to strangers You can't spell "Fuck it" without U and I, baby I'm tryna run it back like a suicide, baby 'Cause you'll be on my mind 'til I D-I-E I'm tryna redefine what I see in we But if you plus me equal death and destruction I guess it's a part of L-O-V-E, so let's (I can't take no more) All these patterns They just keep on repeating Watching strength just fade away into weakness What's in store? Modern symptomatic So self-defeating And it's a triumph just to focus on breathing But I still care Yeah But I still care Yeah Got lost through a crack in the floor Cold soul blown away Now I can't get it back no more Picking off the meat from the bones of Lenore Blood dripping down my beak I will speak nevermore Light floating through the crack in the door Soul blown away Now I can't get it back no more First murder, seed for the gore Now I don't feel a thing No, I don't feel a thing no more Shame on you? No, shame on me Let myself believe that we had all these dreams Now I'm stuck just living the nightmare No fight, sleeping dog died overnight I was right there Hide n' seek, so terrified I can't breathe I thought I heard it scratching at the trapdoor Underneath the same rug where we sweep Lying to each other through our teeth Last thing I heard you say was "Go to sleep" Got lost through a crack in the floor Cold soul blown away Now I can't get it back no more Picking off the meat from the bones of Lenore Blood dripping down my beak I will speak nevermore Light floating through the crack in the door Soul blown away Now I can't get it back no more First murder, seed for the gore Now I don't feel a thing No, I don't feel a thing no more (I can take no more) All these patterns They just keep on repeating Watching strength just fade away into weakness What's in store? Modern symptomatic So self-defeating And it's a triumph just to focus on breathing But I still care Yeah But I still care Yeah