Backbone (It's Not Over)

I need a backbone Wanna remind myself that I can dig out of this hole I need a way home Do what I do but I don't wanna have to do it alone I need to stay awake so I can take all the time that I need I need a backbone I need a backbone 'Cause I know that when I break I'll go deeper, I won't scream and I won't whisper Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower 'cause when I crack it's not over Can't shut down, I stay open 24 hours for one moment Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower 'cause when I crack it's not over I'm on the defense, trying to save myself from going straight out of my mind Don't know what hell is But if I did, I'd probably know half the people in line I had to will myself to pass the test and prove that I'm not too broken to let go I need a backbone When I break I'll go deeper, I won't scream and I won't whisper Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower 'cause when I crack it's not over Can't shut down, I stay open 24 hours for one moment Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower 'cause when I crack it's not over I'm so hard on myself 'cause I'm too afraid to fail Keep my heart on a shelf 'til I'm capable of bending I'm so hard on myself 'cause I'm too afraid to fail Keep my heart on a shelf 'til I'm capable of bending 'Cause I know that 'Cause I know that 'Cause I know that when I break I'll go deeper, I won't scream, I won't whisper Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower 'cause when I crack it's not over Can't shut down, I stay open 24 hours for one moment Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower 'cause when I crack it's not over When I break I'll go deeper (it's not over) I won't scream and I won't whisper (it's not over) Breathe in deep, heartbeat slower 'cause when I crack it's not over