Workaround

I can leave the train these days

with a different thought on my mind

it feels more like coming home now

than it did when I was a child

I´m seeing houses in an artificial scenery

friends are coming back to build a family

and I wonder should I too

or step back in the train

and keep it a safe place in my head?

Is making me the conscious disregard of things

that make me sad a selfish piece of shit?

The beauty of decay is an invention

nothing more than a workaround

It's making me uncomfortable

cause my memories are filled with holes

Just a few more sunrays of the afterglow are shining through

but not the way they used to

I wanna be close by

cause I see the whole world burning.

I wanna be close by

cause I don't think I'll ever learn it