Lyrics
I swear to God that you're so selfish
I wasted time on you and I can't get it back
I feel so helpless I just gotta keep it pushin' can't lose focus
On myself Cause once I'm all alone them voices in my
head start to develop Swear to God that you're so selfish
I wasted time on you and I can't get it back I feel so helpless
I just gotta keep it pushin' can't lose focus on myself
Cause once I'm all alone them demons in my head start to develop
And I just don't think that you'll ever change
You love to do your own thing, love to entertain
Once these motherfuckers come around you talk in vain
You lyin', throwin' guilt and shame on my fuckin' name
It used to be whenever I see you then I'm thinkin' things
But nowadays whenever I see you I'm just torn in pain
And if I'm honest I ain't built for love It's not commitment that's the issue it's
Just all the trust And my anxiety's a bitch wish I could give
It up And if I could I'd have you right here I ain't
Fortunate enough though
Babe what's up though lately I've been in a rut though
I've been stuck woah I can't even focus
I said I'd move on with my life but I can't
Even control it And every time I think about you I show no
Emotion And for a second thought I found someone that
Had some motion It turns out she ain't love me either it
Was for the moment
Tryna vent, fuck
Tryna vent to you so you could understand and know my brain
But I could never think of the words that describe this pain
I try to wake up say be better but it ends the same
Every time I lay my head on my bed I think about you
Damn, what do I do So alone in this world got no one to talk
Me through The voices in my head nowadays is speakin
Truth I laid there for some hours now I'm stuck
Lookin' at the roof God damn it I can't move
It's somethin' on my chest it's gettin' tight and that's the truth
I start to freak out start to panic don't know what to do
I start to see these demons but the demon is just you
And it's just eatin' me up inside And every night I just wonder why
Why'd I let this demon in my life When I knew she'd leave me traumatized
And it's just eatin' me up inside And every day I just wonder why
Why'd I let that demon in my life When I knew she'd leave me traumatized
Written by: Jackson Lee Couch
