does it really matter?

I don't think you understand I feel lonely in the crowd And I don't know why I'm like this But I rather be just by myself Yeah, I made excuses just to get away I tell you maybe when I know I'll stay I make plans with myself 'Cause I'm scared to go out And all of my friends they don't call me, no more I guess they are tired of me saying no All I need was space and time But does it really matter If I'm staying up 'til four Drinking on my own Does it really matter If I'm sleeping all alone Waiting for the sun to rise again Baby, I'm falling down again I don't think you know me well I don't think I know myself Smile when the camera is out But honestly, that's someone else And every party, oh it's way too loud I hate all these bottles that I can't pronounce I don't know what I want But I know that it probably isn't this I guess I should learn but I never do 'Cause I always end up back in my room 'Cause what I needed was just space and time But does it really matter If I'm staying up 'til four Drinking on my own Does it really matter If I'm sleeping all alone Waiting for the sun to rise again Baby, I'm falling down again