SCARED TO LOVE

All of the mess that I made

Left you to clean it up

Knowing that I could have changed

But wasn't strong enough

I blamed it all on you

I thought you'd give up

Knowing that I'm the one

Who's truly scared to love

All of the mess that I made

Left you to clean it up

Knowing that I could have changed

But wasn't strong enough

I blamed it all on you

I thought you'd give up

Knowing that I'm the one

Who's truly scared to love

Up and up and down

All these thoughts in my head get loud

I get lost in sounds

That remind me of how you felt

If I'm the only one

There's no one else above

That means that I'm the one

Who's truly scared to love

Now I'm sitting in my room question everything I do

Feel like I don't wanna move, like I don't really deserve it

Tell me where the proof is, I'm feeling like a nuisance

No, I'm not perfect, am I a bad person?

I don't know if it's true

I've been tripping over things that I would normally move

In such a bad mood that it's becoming normal to you

I catch myself inside a mirror, now I'm dodging the view

Apologizing don't mean, nothing if I'm not going to change

And what's the point of moving forward If I'm losing my way

And making us both look bad no matter the day

I don't want to be the person you're afraid to claim

What if I could find us the reason to push

Fight on keep breathing

I don't know if I can, but I'll sure as hell try

I don't wanna be a person that you can't rely on

All of the mess that I made

Left you to clean it up

Knowing that I could have changed

But wasn't strong enough

I blamed it all on you

I thought you'd give up

Knowing that I'm the one

Who's truly scared to love

Up and up and down

All these thoughts in my head get loud

I get lost in sounds

That remind me of how you felt

If I'm the only one

There's no one else above

That means that I'm the one

Who's truly scared to love

I don't know if I changed or if it's just the pain that changed me

Sometimes I'm cold, but I'm trying not to let it break me

Just know I take the blame for everything it made me

Everything it made me know that I've been distant lately

You ask me, "Baby, are sad, It feels like you hate me"

I say, "You're the only thing that makes me happy lately"

Sometimes I'm holding in the things when I should just say it

I just need to know my feelings are reciprocated

Waking up from night sweats

Beauty holds me tight she got nightmares

Yeah, I know how shitty I might get

Don't know why sometimes I'm like this

And I hate feeling vulnerable

I make a mess, you make our house beautiful

I'm not doing none of what I want to do to confuse you

I'm just scared to love, 'cause I don't really want to lose you

I don't wanna lose you

All of the mess that I made

Left you to clean it up

Knowing that I could have changed

But wasn't strong enough

I blamed it all on you

I thought you'd give up

Knowing that I'm the one

Who's truly scared to love

Up and up and down

All these thoughts in my head get loud

I get lost in sounds

That remind me of how you felt

If I'm the only one

There's no one else above

That means that I'm the one

Who's truly scared to love