Shallow Ecstasy

If only I could feel the slightest sense of peace

A shallow ecstasy, relief from unceasing mind

A chemical void has rendered me restless

Will I survive to see the fabled halcyon day?

In my search for peace, will I be torn apart?

Lose my sense of self and become another

Sealing of the void created by endless strife

Must not reopen wounds on the flesh of man

My own antagonist

Looks like me but is not me

Image of self

Perverted in medical haze

I've ensnared myself in unreality

The flame of healing still distant and pale

My pursuit of light is theft of another's

For light will never shine on me

If only I could feel the slightest sense of peace

A shallow ecstasy, relief from unceasing mind

A chemical void has rendered me restless

But a halcyon day will come at last

In my search for peace, will I be torn apart?

Lose my sense of self and become another

Sealing of the void created by endless strife

Must not reopen wounds on the flesh of man