Dissociation

I wish these expectations didn't hold me like they do

When you still look at me like that

You can't expect time to turn back

Cuz I can't look myself in the mirror

And I wanted to be dead for a while last night

I never cried over losing you

But losing me was truly quite a sight

Aah- Aah- Aah- Ooh-

Haven't answered messages in five days

I'm losing consciousness as commonly as falling down the rabbit hole of shame

I'm trying desperately to wake myself up from this haze

I hope that someday I'll be able to look back at the woman I became

But I don't know who I am anymore

I just pull up the covers and stare at a wide-open door

Still haven't cried over losing you

I just don't know when living became such a chore

Aah- Aah- Aah- Ooh-