That Way After

I grew up before I even knew who I was

Looking you up

A southern-flown troop to the love

Flowing to a dam

Scammed how you viewed it because

I ran too much of the fuss

Stand-in you ran it up

Get it newer

Appraised jewels stayed in the husk

Ain't it true I stayed with you

Before the news ran amuck

You gave into what it was

Now I'm ashamed and stuck

If you gave a fuck

But the exchange rate

Had a strange trait

That currency ran up

The current in me inflamed

The burden in the above

Made you remember my name

May be dismembered but it'll never change

I'm in your brain like a drug

And everyday replay like you ran away

Gimme some

Finicky fun

Dignity dug in the one

That has never given me one chance

Display of the sun

If I could only have once dance

I'd play a tool song

Before you move on

To show you you wrong

I wanted you all along

You won't like me for long

We can be unlikely in love

Even if I write you a song

We'll still be alone

You'll kill me one day it'll get done

'Til I like me enough

I won't let your light in my room

Can't even agree to the dust

I'll see you at dusk

Awake or the tomb

I'll make a way for you

Damn it sucks you never asked me

What actually mattered

I saw it that way then

I see it that way after

Some new things that I see

You pointed out to me

Really it's much more poignant now retroactively

Never proactive. I mash into an attachment

Then look back get to asking

If anyone sees the tracks we laid

I know it's past too late

Sad looking into the lake

After every great bask my back aches

And then I'm asking the snakes if I should be ashamed

They look me back in my face

Twist and manipulate

When I reciprocate

People discriminate

Evil lurking within us all

Best not let it inundate

Zest from a lemon specific taste

Don't let the pith infiltrate

Shit now the bitterest taste

I let get in the way

Now I'm sick and afraid

Of tripping again on the twisted fate

I got tricked in the sit and wait

You don't like me today

Seems unlikely that'll ever change

Ironic now we don't get along

I'm writing you songs

While the light is away

I'm in my hideaway

'Til I like me enough

I won't let your light 'til I bloom

Can't even agree to the dust

I'll see you at dusk

Awake or the tomb

Hope I can make room