Choke (Solo Version)

I cut all the ties in the name of my freedom

Burned every bridge while my lungs filled with smoke

Praying for rock bottom just to say I'm grounded

Tough pill to swallow and i'm trying not to choke

Lost every reason that i've tried to hold on to

Didn't think twice, i just kinda let go

And i fall apart every time they say "What's wrong with you?"

I've tried to explain but even i just don't know

It's tough pill to swallow and i'm trying not to choke

Oh, i kissed a boy and he tasted like sadness

So i kissed him more and i guess it rubbed off

He left and recovered as it plagued me like illness

I'm happy for him but i can't shake this cough

Oh, i've not been well but i blame it on weather

Chicago's too dark and a little too cold

So i moved down south but i don't feel much better

My mind still feels frozen but there's no fucking snow

It's a tough pill to swallow and i'm trying not to choke

My medicine is tasting like poison

Was there something inside that i broke?

Breathe deep but there's still so much noise when

My heart's in the back of my throat

Oh, i choke