I wake up at sunset

Just wanting to go to bed

Life isn't real

I don't wanna feel again

I'm growing out of my wardrobe

And moving out of Toronto

There's no place like home with loving family

To feel guilty for getting carried, spending money that isn't yours and feeling alone

Lie around another hour

Scrolling through others attempts to cut through this despair

Try to find the will to shower

But there's no one left to impress, and there's nothing for me out there

But lately I've been ruminating about the ways I gave up to save me

I shaved the baggage off the baby, to try again

But wake up at sunset

Just wanting to go to bed

Life isn't real

I don't wanna feel again

My sweat covers the mattress

There's dirty dishes and moldy bread

There's no place like home with all your homies

Wasting time and feeling lonely

But in reality I'm scared of coming home and giving up on hope of being on my own unless I'm living like a drone and staring blankly at my phone I'll never grow a single bone out here alone

Could it be I wasn't worthy

Or did I just give up too early

Can I outgrow these bad habits

Bit the bullet to take one last hit

Do I dare open the casket

And put my eggs into one basket

The dream that wasn't meant to be

Held on so long it became a part of me

I'm still winding down from running round the park don't stop me let me fizzle out the sparks and drag the feeling out to long

As I hold the feeling in the way I hold my breath to try to to see the stars don't be alarmed when I

Wake up up at sunset

Just wanting to go to bed

Life isn't real

I don't wanna feel again

I search deep within me

And find just what I need

To get back to normal but what is normal 'cause ever since I was a kid

I woke up at sunset

Not trying to go to bed

Life feels surreal

I can't wait to feel again

I'm growing out of my wardrobe

And getting into a new zone

There's no place like home where I can be me and I'm the closest I've ever been to being happy and laughing at me for being a joke

Until the sun's behind you

Until the sun's behind you

Goodbye

Goodbye