Mesmerised

I've fallen back into the sickness Regress, repress all symptoms Black my lungs to die young A bitter sharp tongue Biting back against everything I chose to repress We live just to die as the blind leads the blind Cause when it comes to an end We all have regrets But I've learned to let go Pretend, pretend like the pain will all now come to an end Been swallowed whole and left a sorrowed soul Cause I've been waiting my whole life To make myself believe the very words I preach So spare the delusion I'm not your saviour I'll let it all fade away Don't paint me a martyr I'm not your anchor These opaque eyes left mesmerised I'm slipping back into hypnosis Tried concealing the sickness with poisons With no one left to blame From this I can't abstain An apathetic, pathetic excuse for rotting away We live just to die When the pain will subside Cause when it comes to an end, we all pay our debts So it's time to let go Descend, descend Down into the darkness, impulsive self hatred Carve out my beating heart till I depart Cause I keep tearing myself down to live this fallacy Regress, repress Regress, repress Been swallowed whole and left a sorrowed soul I'll let it all fade away So spare the delusion I'm not your saviour I'll let it all fade away Don't paint me a martyr I'm not your anchor These opaque eyes left mesmerised Regress, repress Regress, repress Been swallowed whole and left a sorrowed soul Regress, repress I'm not worth saving These opaque eyes left mesmerised I've been searching for the strength to mend the hole in my heart And I'll keep fighting the urge to suffer misery for art Cause I've been searching for the strength to mend the hole in my heart And I'll keep fighting the urge to suffer misery All for art