That's Why I Gave Up on Music

I'm suddenly taken back to that time When I waited for you underneath the blue sky Passing by me in an instant Slipping from the depths of my imagination, hey Can someone tell me what'll happen next? Say, tell me how to make it go on just another day Looking right into your eyes As I walk away from you one last time I'm suddenly taken back to that time All the summers who would bore me out of my mind Didn't I quit playing piano? Out of habit, tapping on my desk to play the notes Hey, can someone tell me what I'm gonna do? Hey, anything besides music should be okay Everything will be okay If you took my heart and drew A single note just straight on through No, it wouldn't disappear, believe me Whatever I do, it just won't disappear It's still right here But I've got it wrong again I don't understand I don't really care though Not about music, or truth, or this world, or this life I hold I don't really care, no Seeing things in black and white isn't right It's just an excuse, right? One thing's for sure, though Everything is your fault I'm suddenly taken back to that time Growing old was the only thing on my mind Knowing that I simply would die was like a stab in the chest Though I never understood why Hey, do you know what you'll be doing one day? Passing by the years I knew what I would do one day I'd be doing nothing at all All your positivity ignites a hatred deep in me Knowing I'll never be happy Knowing that I'll never be enough, can't you see? It haunts my every single waking dream But I know you know I'm right Though we're different, we're humans deep inside But without love, or salvation, or kindness, or comfort though Is it really life? No Crying when the radio plays this sappy note is lame But this I know One thing's for sure, though Everything is your fault I've tried, but I still don't understand why Why is it we have to fight to live our own life Why I can't live off doing the one thing I like I don't care if my lyrics aren't quite right I don't really care, no 'Cause I think I've got it right Yeah, I think I've got it right Yeah, I know I've got it right But I've got it wrong again I don't understand I don't really care though Not about humans, or truth, or this world, or this life I hold I don't really care, no Never giving a reply Just philosophic lines It's just an excuse, right? One thing's for sure, though Everything is your fault (Ahh) Even I had dreams long, long ago Now it doesn't feel the same as it did before I've told you time and time again It really didn't matter if nothing came of it, you know You do know I know you know Now I can't do it anymore So now you know why So now you know why I don't do music anymore