Lip Service

You can't hurt me Anymore than you have already It's taking everything in me Not to be petty What once was easy Is now feeling pretty heavy Waiting is romance Until they are never ready All that lip service Filled me right up and over the surface I get next to you and I still get nervous The stomach drop when you said I don't deserve this I don't deserve this "It's just not like you" Is what I tell myself but How could I know that? I guess it's true love Cause you always come right back Or reliability is what you lack (I don't wanna know that) You talk of timing Like our planets just aren't aligning As if we don't have any say in deciding As if my tongue is the only one I'm biting As if I don't have all your confessions down in writing (Yeah, it's the timing) All that lip service Filled me right up and over the surface I get next to you and I still get nervous The stomach drop when you said I don't deserve this I don't deserve this I don't deserve this I can't let you lie to me I don't know who you're trying to be I didn't wanna up and leave But I knew you wouldn't stay with me I think about you all the time We thought it would but it never died My guilt is who I sleep beside I wonder if you're warm tonight We tried to control all the damage Yeah, you couldn't let go, I couldn't handle All the doubt in my mind came and swallowed All that's left are the lies where you hollowed I can't listen to the songs that you gave me Wish you'da saved yourself Cause now I gotta save me Now I gotta save me Is there a world we could make this better? Will I question your intentions forever? My skull is cracking under pressure But Phoebe said "it's for the better" I double back on the overpass Yeah, I do what I can to make this last You tell me that it's real And it cuts like glass I'm scared of how i feel When you talk like that (When you talk like that) (Can I talk like that?) (When you talk like that) (And you talk like that) (When you talk like that) (Can we talk?) You were a gift tho And I would do it all again so Maybe we can try whenever you are able I'm not waiting I'm just sitting at the table