Won't Let Myself Become You

Holy falter Disrespect unspoken treaties Constant needing Keeps reflecting something filthy Self absorbed A sickness you Can't stop exuhuming All the times I needed you I just stopped expecting Say what you wanna say Nobody's listening Can't see the point in this When all that's crumbling is you What's behind me now Is still in front of you Can't see through the hate Won't let myself become you Won't let myself become You She keeps throwing me away again With no regard for the pain I'm in All the while knowing that she's the bane of it The reason behind all these sleepless nights and One sided fights turning arguments into a main event Definition of a villain who will act like a vixen Parades all day masquerading a victim Keep screaming from the top of your lungs Tryin to prove to everyone how you're not toxic as fuck Say what you wanna say Nobody's listening Can't see the point in this When all that's crumbling is you What's behind me now Is still in front of you Can't see through the hate Won't let myself become you I've been trying to keep my head above the water I've been drowning in a sea of Your fake tears for years texting everyone that ya know Like a martyr Your god complex is really starting to appear All along it's been a part of the whole persona I should have realized that it would never disappear When you finally come to grips with all the things that you did the waves gonna hit when you catch a glimpse in the mirror Guilt Something like a disease That consumes you when you just live as you please For far too long we were descending towards our end Now that we're at the bottom you don't have to pretend I'm sick of biting tongue and pulling my hair out While you keep tearing down everything that I care about No more highroads or taking the fair route You tied the fucking rope I'm just kicking the chair out. Say what you wanna say Nobody's listening Can't see the point in this When all that's crumbling is you What's behind me now Is still in front of you Can't see through the hate Won't let myself become you Say what you wanna say Say what you wanna say Won't Let Myself Become You